Take my blood!!!

So i got my appointment made for the 10th to get my blood taken, and i have my appointment for Friday set up for my Depo shot. yeah i decided to give blood again. this usually happens when i forget what its like to get a needle. same goes for the Depo. that's what usually happens.
like last time i gave blood i was all "hey IV wasn't that bad! i was just being a wuss." did my thing, was all woozy, and could probably be heard saying something along the lines of "i am never giving blood again, evil needles of hell, whoooooozzzzy....." then passing out.

Scott's home, least i think he is. he hasn't called at all today and when i called there he didn't pick up. if he is out with friends I'm gonna cry. seriously. id be so mad! hes probably still sleeping though. he likes to sleep alot. i hope he isn't working! that would be gay! he just got home at like 2! then again, when i came home from Arizona Ellie and hazel wanted me to come to work even before i was off the plane. so that wouldn't surprise me lol.

so yeah, got a huge ass confidence boost this last weekend. got hit on at the bar by both guy and girl, as usual, made a guy cashier at superstore blush for god knows what reason. AND! i found this super good rant about how being fat isn't that horrible of a thing! which it isn't. i weight around 200lb and i have been hit on more often now then i did when i was 140lb and a size 10 instead of a size 14-16. so i feel pretty good about my body right now! which is a really nice change. :D :D i even drew a pic about being hot even though I'm disgustingly by society's standards.

dog got neutered like 3 days ago. cost me $300 freaking dollars! mostly cuz my mom kept adding on stupid shit, leave it to my mom to jack up the price just cuz she isn't paying. at 1st it was just to get his balls cut off, $130-140 which i could afford. then she wanted him to get all his shots, i figured an extra $50 so $190-180. then when she drops him off she adds of freaking blood tests and all these other tests to make sure he is a dog and is healthy. he looks like a freaking dog! he better the hell be healthy! yeah so i have now payed 1/4th of what he is worth if not more. so he better stay healthy for a looooooong time. i kinda feel bad for snipping his balls. its like if someone ripped out all my reproductive glands without asking me, id be pissed. but, i guess its for the best?

anyways I'm gonna try calling Scott again. then perhaps play DDR.





MMMMMM, toast. stupid toaster!