- i hate spicy stuff, like tomato paste is where i draw the line. yet i keep eating this shit and chugging down 10 tons of water. because I'm really stupid.
- cheese makes me sick. so not only will i be crapping out fire bombs but the lactose will probably try to get the upper hand and kill me.
in other news i love my dog. i really do, he makes me happy, and we have so much fun. i think when he passes away ill be very heart broken. worse or at least = to when my last dog passed away. mostly because I've been with him since he was pup. we snuggled on the floor, and when we would have showers together. lots of good memories. i really do love him. <3 I've also been having really vivid dreams. the day before i got my 1st pedicure, and that night i dreamt i was sitting at my desk and i accidentally broke something glass. for some reason i got the feeling it was a light bulb. and as i got up to get the broom, i got a bunch of glass in my foot. i picked most of it out, and there was a little bit of blood on each piece. but then in my heal was like this huge hunk, it was curved and was sunken in 1/2 way into my heal. i started to pull it out and i noticed that if i did it would bleed heavily and i should probably get stitches. so i tell this to my mom and that i need her to help me get to the hospital. she says "no way I'm going over there! i don't want to get any glass in my feet!" so i yell at her to sweep up the glass then. she tells me "i don't want to, I'm tired I'm going to go take a nap." and then walks away. and so I'm sitting there with this huge chunk of glass in my foot and all i could think was, "well there goes my pedicure." and i tried to pull the glass out. but you see when i pulled the glass out, it hurt but it wasn't to the point that i couldn't take the pain, and i was calm the whole time. was extremely weird. last nights dream, i was biking around Edmonton, but it was kinda run down and there was grass and plants everywhere. me and Amanda biked up to this one point and it was this huge group listening to this speaker in an open field. beside the crowd was a concession stand and i was getting me and Amanda drinks. some guy tried to butt in from of me and i get mad and bump up and in front of him. he tries to grab me, and i remember the feeling of being way out of my league and yet i still kept going and fought back. i get Amanda's and my drinks and we take off on our bikes. so we start to leave the field and we see this hydro garden with sunflowers growing in it. we stop to look at them and i see this huge caterpillar. and for some reason the Caterpillar was the apinaty of my dream. all the Caterpillar did was climbing up and down the leaf eating bits of it. and both the leaf and Caterpillar were huge! like the leaf was the size of my head and the Caterpillar could fit in my hand nicely.
then some guy were after us ( i think it had to do with the guy i bitched out at in the concession.) and we jumped onto our bikes and booked it.
both dreams were really vivid and i could remember every detail. i think its because Ive been lacking sleep. i could go for some right now actually. i think my crappy sleep is due to stress. Ive got 2 have exams to worry about. my bio diploma, and my math exam.
best part is that even if i tell the math final to go blow its self, ill still pass! with only a 56% but ill still pass lol. every one i tell that to asks me if i am going to the exam. which is a really dumb question, considering I've put in all this work, there is no way in hell id skip it!
now bio on the other hand I'm fucked if i bomb. i think i need at least a 70%. to keep me in the 70% range.and the higher 70% range I'm in the better chance i have of getting into NAIT.
must get into NAIT and get out of this hell hole! must!
its dumb because the stupid diploma is 50% of our over all mark! cuz that doesn't put tons of pressure on kids and make them lock up! and when you go to do the diplomas its like your going into lock down. if you have to pee a teacher goes with you and stands outside your stall.
moms being nosy again. she just sits there and watches me. its SO annoying. its like I'm some freak reality TV show. but the difference is that the cast doesn't get asked a billion stupid questions. i do. what are you doing? whats that? how school? why is the dog looking at the wall? does my hair look frizzy? what do you think fish think in their tank?
now shes asking me if i feel guilty about what I'm typing. and is demanding i fill up the dogs food dish. cuz that piano tired to her HUGE ass is So heavy.
! i just remembered! the girl that was suppose to be my replacement for nighttime supervisor quit. this will be the 2nd, or is it the 3rd person to reject the position. its funny. you know your job sucks ass when every person they hire to replace you quits before they are even close to being finished training. i should get a raise!
so sleepy. i just want this day to be over so i can go to bed and die. ugh, i guess i better go study some bio again. i find i absorb it better when i study it in chunks.
cya.
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