a lil garbage to start ur day! so anyways, im wondering how 2morows going to be. the drive thru was? $20 short again, and i couldnt find it anywhere. so ellie is gonna bitch to me and mel about it. and ill tell her to set up camras like every other SMART place. yeah we get robbed, im suppose to give them money, wave good-bye and lock the doors behind them. phone 911, wait, then try and remeber what they look like, then cry. oh we do have an alarm, but it makes lots of noise and will probably get us all shot, because its useless. good ol' KFC! only the best for its employees!
still having nasel problems. the new ribs at work are killing me, the smell of them makes me wanna sneeze. i have no clue why, but it was a pain cuz i always wanted to sneeze while i was making meals. stupid cold! i starting to feel a lil better, we will just have to see how it runs. gots lots to do tomorow 2! gotta go pick up my soaps (which i had to special order :S) from health for you, pick up forms to re-apply for highschool and upgrade, AND get scotts cell phone money. for whenever he should decide to get it. which will probably be tomorow.
how do i know this? well this is how it works with me and scott. we can have a fight, or just even be a lil busy, and he will not talk to me for 4 days. and if i try to contact him its like he has to go out of his way to pay attention to me. when i call him he doesnt even talk. or better yet he will talk over me about computer junk/ignore me completely, and just go, "uh hu, yeah" REALLY annoying. so when the 4th day comes around he is usually horny from not getting any for the 4 days. will wanna meet up again to "talk" and says sorry to whatever i say, even if im bitching about something that has nothing to do with him. he gets cuddly, then we screw (cuz honestly im not an empty husk either!) he gets his jollys, maybe hangs out with me for like a day or 2 then procedes to ignore me again. hes fav trick is to have me come over, say " i have lots of work/stuff i have to get done so do you wanna sit on the sofa and rot?" then when i look in on him to see what he is doing, hes playing f***ing games, or surfing the web >:( not cool.
i honestly feel like I'm some sort of "convenient" girlfriend. i can only be around when HE thinks its convenient. times it feels like i should start asking for tips after he taps me on my ass and tells me to go on my merry way. people get PAYED to do what i do! "la sigh" i suppose its my own fault too. Ive never really put pressure on him when he does that. usually i get pissed and storm off. then he ignores me til he's horny. so yeah.
I think its going to be pretty much over with me and Scott soon. I KNOW! i know, i say that almost weekly, but really. its getting harder and harder to bounce back. every time we do this my love for him starts to crumble a lil. Christ, its gotten to the point where i start to wonder what it would be like with other guys! which is a big thing for me! I'm all "one person and one person only!" type girl, i hate dishonesty, and i hate violation of trust. but i wanna be free again, as heartless as that sounds. most of the time i feel caged. Scott used to make me feel free and happy, but now... i dunno.
well at the very least, when we do break up i can at least get my Jem and the holograms box set from him. Ive been waiting/wanting it forever! lol!
my moms being a major douche too! god! shes sitting there saying that me and dad have been stealing her pills again. shes sooooooo stupid that she has probably been "hiding" them again i the house and lost them. just like that time we "stole" her can of coffee, which was really under the bed, right where she left it. if she keeps getting this way dads going to tell her to take a hike and give her 1/2 of what the house is worth. shes retarded, she just doesn't see that she is burning her bridges. i have no pity left for her now. not when one seconds she all "ur the best child in da world!" then 180s and goes "bitch i fucking hate you! why wont you move out and die!" and does this to me every day.
ah well. me and dad heard if we take her to Ponoka (it's where our local crazy house is), we can get $50 and a watermelon as a trade in! i like watermelon and $50 can pay for my library card renewed! *thinking evil thoughts!*
Ive been on a real roll today! Ive updated DA (which Ive been putting off!) and updated my blog with something more personal. would update Twiggier, but the cat said it was being maintenance. which is cool, cuz i like the kitty picture XD!!! i still haven't updated my writing blog *blushes* just haven't been inspired. maybe ill write about the life of my dog. that would be a laugh. :D
gotts to go to bed now! nighty~!
Love
This is love. another part of my mini series! hope you like her! her sister is Lust.
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